Wow it's been over 3 years since I last logged in to my blog..

Time has passed and who'd thought I'd end up working in Singapore?

God has been wonderful to me. Got to work at such a great place with great people.

Though I may not enjoy every part of the working process as the way people work here can be quite "square", I take this as another learning experience and a stepping stone for me to grow even more.

Working with kids has always been a joy to me eventhough sometimes they can REALLY annoy & irritate the hell out of me (not kidding at all...try having someone that's like a broken tape recorder and someone that has a voice of a loudspeaker)

This year is a big challenge for me as I've never actually worked so closely with special needs children before on a long term basis (the most I've done was a week! or 4 times a month) They are just sweethearts but sometimes they can really be difficult to manage since I'm not specialized in this area (I would love to study further on this area)

Staying alone is doing me great too! All the privacy to myself and no need to worry or compromise anything ;D But rental isn't such a great joy... since it has increased.. my monthly budget for self-spending has to decrease.. oh wells! I believe God will continue to provide as He has done for me the past year. Hehe

I guess that's all.. gonna sign out now.. until next time.........

HOMEWORK 1

[formal]
안녕하세요! 저는 Jacqueline입니다.
저는 금년에 스물한살이에요.
저는 선생님이에요.
저의 취미로는 노래를 듣고 그리고 피아노를 연주.
저의 좋아하는 음식은 치킨밖에 없어요.

[informal]
안녕! Jacqueline입니다~ 나는 거의 이십세에요.
나는 지금은 아직 영어 선생님이다 근데 내년 난 학교 쌤이다~
나의 제일 좋아하는 가수가 비스트의 양요섭 하지만 나의 이상형 남자는 윤두준씨~

HOMEWORK 2

내 동생

HOMEWORK 3

저는 제일 좋아하는 동물은 없어요.

YoSeob oppa!

우리 양요섭 오빠~

It's a midnight full of thoughts.
I wonder what is difficult these days..
I actually don't even have that many schedules these days too..
I'm just fully resting.
But since my body is resting, my mind is starting to become busy.

Random thoughts start to grab on to my ankles, wrists, and arms ..
I am just caught up in my thoughts these days.

From really small personal things
To things I have to do in the future
I look back on the path that I had been running on.
In particular.. things I lacked for you guys..
Um..such as
Not giving you guys as many hearts as before..?
Like the decrease of my aegyo (cuteness) as I started to mature..? (I am reminded by Psy sunbaenims Healing Camp episode)
Just ignoring when you guys ask me to rap..?
Etc etc.. there are many more..

..I'm thinking of pressing the reset button once again..

Even though I don't give out hearts like the blonde hair Yang Yoseob in the past
Or show aeygo like I did on Star Golden Bell
Or rap like Yong Junhyung

But like the first time, the earliest I can remember.
To the time when I was the fan service machine..
I will try hard to go back to those times.

I am BEAST's Yang Yoseob.
You guys are b2uties.
Therefore, I will be FanSeob.

Anticipate, 2013 Yang Yoseob's fan's year.

Good night everyone mwah mwah

Oppa.. please don't be so hard on yourself!

Just your presence on stage is a huge gift to us ♥

오빠 힘내요!

양 화이팅!! 양 오빠 영원히 사랑해요!! ♥

via http://www.b2strising.com/index.php?showtopic=17275&st=0

Exams + Korea Trip soon!

안녕하세요!!!

저는 Jacqueline 입니다!

wah damn long since i last blogged.. xD

I have less than 2 weeks before i face WAR!!!

P1 : 

Montessori Philosophy, Child Development, ChildCare&Health / Contemporary Issues

P2 : 

Activities of Everyday Living, Sensorial, Literacy, Creativity, Knowledge & Understanding of the World and Numeracy & Arithmetic

just finished our Practical exam on the 9th! Thank god for that.. now we're working hard for ....

our goal : GRADUATING TOGETHER!!

Once this is over with.. gotta work on 10th - 14th Dec before i officially am off for holidays xD

Heading to Korea for 9D7N on 21st - 30th Dec !! 대박! 내 꿈이 이루어!! ♥ 고마원 엄마!!

However i still need to pay the expenses.. .__. lucky my mom subsidised the plane ticket for me.. keke!

I'm plannin to get gifts for ma friends.. but dunno wad to get OMG... albums would be the BEST lo to me.. ㅎㅎ

I checked out the teddy bear souvenir prices.. OTL bloody expensive.. but i think i should get at least one for me special friend 정가연! ♥

She has done and shared so much with me.. it's worth it even if i spend some money for her.. ㅋㅋ though i wished and prayed so hard that she could join me... HUHU! 

if i could afford.. i wouldn't mind subsidising her air plane ticket to go KOREA but since i've only worked abt 2 years.. my saving isn't that much.. maybe next time in the future.. ! 자신에게 약속! 

loggin off now... maybe i shall update next round about wad i wanna buy LMAO!

Fckin Life.. ZZ

Im just gonna be using black since im emo-ing now.. =.=

seriously.. anyone wants to change their lives with me for just one day??

let's see whether will u complain about ur life..

though i may not have a perfect life i've never once ever complain to this extend..

.___.

C'mon any one?? just one day?!

It's so sad to come home to a retarded house that

whenever all 3 family members are home..

no one is ever happy.. NO ONE! 

the only time i'm truly happy is when i'm ALONE listening to

music.. not only KPOP.. but all genres of music

it sounds harsh but seriously..

i'm happiest when i'm alone.. when i talk to God ALONE..

happy when i'm with mom and my bestie KahYan..

nt happy at all other than that.. and i MEAN THAT

i wish my life was just like a fairy tale where ppl are so loving..

i HATE the fact that other ppl may not have as much

freedom as i do.. but live a happier life than me..

i HATE the fact that other parents control their children 

and YET they are leading a much happier life than me..

i also HATE the fact that my asshole brother 

earns so much money..

Is money really all that?! SO WHAT YOU FREAKIN EARN

RM4000 per month huh?! SO WHAT?

NO ONE IN YOUR WORK PLACE LIKES YOU CUZ OF UR FKIN

ATTITUDE THAT THINKS YOU'RE ALL THAT!

excuse me for the language..

but seriously.. have you ever thought that it's NOT YOU that

is great? but it's GOD's gift for you?

if it wasn't for all Mom's prayers.. HELLO

YOU'D BE BEGGIN AT THE ROAD BY NOW.. =.=

it's harsh to say that i know.. but i DONT FKIN CARE..

.___.

that's all.. im happier now that NO ONE IS TALKING TO ME

OR BUGGIN THE HELL OUT OF ME..

IM OFF TO LISTEN TO MY MUSIC THAT CALMS ME 

DOWN NO MATTER WHAT SITUATION I'M IN.. ♥

kthxbai

april 2012

Ok wow! that's heck of a fast..

it's already april of 2012! aigoo! ♥

anyways.. it's been 1 1/2 months since i last posted

kekeke~

and i'm back with B1A4 picturess...

well not exactly their pics..

i was on daum cafe playing a game using them as the theme.. so yea

cant really see.. it.. but it's 바로 oppa!

here's 신우 oppa!

uri maknae 공찬이

leader 진영

vocals 산들이

that's all!! haha

BBCsGOTBLOCKBsBACK!

woah it's been a month since i last posted! xD

anyways back to 

blog about BLOCK B!

right.. there are tons of rumors going around

regarding BLOCK B who

"disrespected" THAILAND..

well they might have been wrong for being "rude"

or "disrespectful" during the interview..

BUT is that a reason for you haters to send them

death threats/suicide petition/disbanding petitions??

NO!

don't you haters know that by doing such 

petty things it makes u so childish?

do you think getting people to commit suicide is such an awesome

thing to do in life?

SERIOUSLY HATER.. PLEASE GO GET A LIFE

Im just here to flush out my anger =.=

i'm so upset and hurt to see our BlockB members so hurt

and our maknae P.O is admitted in the hospital

due to Schizophrenia

well.. i for once am a BBC forever a BBC!

unlike those haters who turned their back on Block B!

#StayStrongPyoJiHoon

#StillLoveUBlockB

#BBCsGOTBLOCKBsBACK

Self-Made book!

Well.. i finally made a book to oversee how much i spend in a month =D

Just used an old book (use to collect note books when i bought story books)

Then wrapped it up with red A4 paper and covered it in simple decoration..

Keke.. 

Front of the book... keke~

Back of the book~ *i used B1A4 and B2ST's song lyrics xD

Finally myself posing with my self-made account book!

Oh~ I'm proud of myself.. xD

So now i jot down everything i spend on.. so i can

monitor my naughty hand from spending all my hard earned money =D

Kamsahabnida YoSeob oppa gwa Baro oppa!~ ♥

Happy New Year 2012

Happy New Year! 

wow it's been in a blink of an eye that one hear has just gone by!

omg it's so fast 2012! >///<

and i'm a year older shyt!

haha anyways :

새해 복 많이 받으세요

saehae bok mahni badeuseyo~!

just the korean way of saying HappyNewYear! =D

Yesterday went out Karaoke at NeWay, Puchong together with:

KahYan, her bro, bro's 2 friends, Alison, Angie, ChunJi and fake Baro.. =.=

I still emphasize that 'he' does NOT look like Baro.. xD

had a great time there singing!

After that left for dinner at SP.. food at 미나래 (minarae)

oh the food was splendid!

Thanks to KahYan's bro for the meal! =D

Then we dropped by at ChaTime to grab a drink..

KahYan and me ordered Lychee flavour! NICE ♥

after that we went Equine Park for the countdown..

Guess who did we see? ♥

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ALEXANDER!! 

Gah! so handsome.. HAHA!!

but sadly when we reach the countdown area.. 

=.=

ngam ngam everyone finished performing!

oh wells! this year la! xDD

Finally,

i got back home around 2.30am!

haha that was super late! omg

anyways i slept peacefully for 12 hours

and woke up at 2.30PM!

hahah!

the end =D

MAMA Awards 2011

omg haha how i love it that 

every single time i log into mama.mnet.com

B2ST will appear as the header! xDD

here's how it looks like : *fyi i cropped it*

oh yea~ 

im faithfully voting for b2st 

in all the categories they're involved in! =D

wakaka.. i hope they do win at least one award!

*finger crossed*

BEAST

i know b2st in 3.2010 (SHOCK promotions)

but began to LOVE (ADDICTED) them starting 9.2010 (SOOM promotions)

i love them because they are B2ST!♥

they’re special because they have individual charms and talents

making ppl fall in love with them every single second!

well at least my love for them grows bigger each time I think of them♥

my bias=yoseob! i love yoseob because he’s:

perfect, full of himself, not afraid to show his wackiness around ppl and because has an awesome VOICE!

i NEVER get bored listening to him.. his ability to make bird sounds attract me so much! seeing him during the Fan Meeting in Malaysia on 1 July 2011..i totally fawned over him and now i cant get him out of my mind! =D

thanks to them.. I now LOVE korean language and even learning by myself the language..now i can read but still cant fully understand it! BUT im gonna work hard and master this language for them

b2st hwaiting! love you so much!!

비스트 화이팅! 너무 사랑해요!!

Congratz: 2nd year anniversary!!

2회 기념일 축하 해요!

something i posted in a FB event.. haha~

chunji oppa's big day! =D

woots!!

guess what day is today?

5.10.2011

CHUNJI Oppa's Birthday!! =D

keke! he looks so perfect! xD

oh btw on the picture it states :

CheonJi gun ui saengil-eur chukha habnida 

Happy Birthday to our heavenly ChunJi

(that's wad i think it means.. LOL)

hopefully he has a wonderful and awesome day =D

love ChunJi oppa! ♥

Haha jeongmal gwiyeoyo ne? XD

woots.. its already OCTOBER

wow cant believe how time flies so fast!

it's like ytd i just sat for SPM.. xD

anyways.. just last Saturday (24th Sept 2011)

i attended the KOREAN MUSIC WAVE!

오 마이 갓!!

i went with my bestie Kah Yan!! ♥

Her bro fetched me and his friend..

so four of us went there =D

so freakin cool!

we bought some badges and managed to see :

1. FT Island

2. Teen Top

3. 4Minute

4. U-Kiss

5. Park Jung Min

6. SeungRi

7. GD&TOP

keke.. i classed them all according to their

official fan colours! Big Bang doesn't have an

official colour so i left them in black.. paiseh.. 

oh yea.. and chun ji is like neomu GWIYEOWO!!

omg.. LOL.. i just added another 오빠 to my list!

ngekngek!

oh anyways i've just spotted YOSEOB my nampyeon's

new picture in twitter! he's so adorable.. XDD

funny thing is my mom likes him too! LOL.. and she calls

him my namja chingu..

oh imagine if he was here in malaysia~~

then can really be my bf (che-wah)

uri eomma sure approve!! ♥

check out his cuteness!

oh yoseob oppa saranghaeyo!! ♥

one month?!

ookie..

woah it's been a month since my last post.. xD

i've been quite busy with my work and assignments! ><

i still have 3 assignments to go.. OMG..

darn.. 

well.. i think im officially obsessed with BEAST!

huhu! i love them =D

i know chuseok/mid-autumn festival is like officially over..

but wadeva.. they are so cute.. so i tot i'd post :

for those not familiar.. this is Beast

from left : JunHyung, HyunSeung, YoSeob, GiKwang, DongWoon, DuJun

yes.. i totally love them =)

all their songs actually..

i love both their ballad and pop songs ♥

oh well.. i really wish to see them in Malaysia again!

every since the FM back in July, i totally am crazy about beast.. HAHA

yes i am mad.. =.= im starting to spend money too! omg?!

after 17 years of my kedekut life.. im actually spending

money.. on KPOP! wth.. lols

passion?

topic : passion 

Oh well, everyone needs passion in order to enjoy what they do.
My passion is to work/study children as they progress from childhood.


How did i began this journey to pursue my passion?


It began back in early 2008 (form 3) when i was first exposed to Montessori Education.
"Wow~!" is my first impression... i couldn't get that idea out of my mind when i heard it
because to me.. learning thru play is best for i'm not good at theory.. i'm more of the
hands-on type of girl.. so hahas~


Initially, it interest me little.. cause i was still searching for what i wanted to pursue after 
high school.. PMR passed by and soon it was almost 2009! The beginning of my 
decision-making.. I personally chose to take up Science Stream even though many
told me about the suffering.. 


Oh yeah, i suffered alright.. but i guess well my results weren't that poor? LOL.. 
i consider it as average since i hated reading.. >< so byebye History.. haha i stilled
scored an average of B =D 


Towards end of the year, where the Finals were there.. omg torture.. 4As?! oh dear..
dear dear me.. well.. my mother's dream of me being a Doctor went down the drain..
(bwahaha) Anyways.. i didn't really bother since i never intended to become a doctor
due to lack of interest and financial issues.. 


In December 09', Aunty Sherilyn asked me to volunteer out in a programme known as
"The Holiday Fun Club" meant for children with special needs! O.O it was something new
to me as i being 16 years old was oni exposed to special needs people being Down's Syndrome,
Dyslexia and Tourette's Syndrome (look it up if u dunno) 


It was a life-time experience for me that three days =)


I found out that children with special need compromises of :
1. ADHD (Attention Deficit Hyperactvity Disorder)
2. Autism  (Children that are affected socially, and have tendencies of repeating certain actions)
3. Epilepsy (Jerking, Staring, Moving aimlessly, confusion)
4. Dysphagia (An eating disorder where the child can only take liquid or tubing is needed)
5. William's Syndrome (one who can socialize easily with anyone but lacks of common sense)


There are certainly more of these special needs children with different disabilities.


I fell in love with the children as i saw them.. because it really opened my eye on how
these children learn. They learn through the Montessori Method which is what i am
currently pursuing in SEGi College, Subang Jaya.


Why do i think this is an effective method?


Children these days are different from us. They are brought up in an environment with 
almost everything provided for them.. But one thing they lack is : Independence
What makes me so sure is that, parents spoil their child so much without even realizing it.


iPad, iPad2, MacBook.. What are all these?! believe it or not.. kids aged 2/3 years old
own them! These high technology items are what children play with now.


The Montessori Method provides an environment where children can independently
do things on their own. They are given freedom to move around in the school/nursery unlike
what normal kindy's do. 


In normal kindergartens, teachers are very strict and abuse their authority upon the children..
Such acts inhibits the child's development in school as they are frightened and do not dare
to disobey their teachers.. Anything they do will be judged!


Whereas in the Montessori environment, children are given chances to do decision-making!
They have the right to voice out what they need and can independently do their own things.
That is what i'm looking for! Not only that, children can explore their talent! Every child
learns at his/her own pace.. we cannot force something upon the child because it will only 
disrupt his/her development.


Year 2011


I'm now currently working in PowerKids, SriPetaling.


When i first began working there, i enjoyed every single day until my health began
deteriorating.. The workload was too much for me to bear. I felt that it was unfair that im
being underpaid and doing loads of work. I didn't say much though because i loved working
with the children. But not long after that feeling, working hours stretched from 7.45-4pm
to 7.45-6pm sometimes 7pm..


What is it? i have my employees rights! i really couldn't take it..
Along comes this particular teacher who then tells me "You have to stay back to help,
you aren't the only one that needs to stay, we too have to help out" I wasn't happy with
that statement for to me IT ISN'T RELEVANT THAT I NEED TO DO SOMETHING
THAT DOESN'T BENEFIT ME NOR MY HEALTH!


never mind. I let that one slide, but oh dear! my health just became WORSE! but i guess
no compassion is given to me. =/ 


I have finally got the "YES" for half-day work and it's doing me much better.
My cough has 90% gone and flu 90% gone.. hopefully by the end of this month it's totally 
gone from me! and oh yay i have had no fever for the past week! finally!!


well, workload is still as much but i don't want to care anymore.. what i can do,
i will do.. what i can't SO BE IT! and i am NOT PLANNING TO DO ANYMORE
OVERTIMES ESPECIALLY WHEN I AM NOT BEING PAID! 


Why i labeled this passion.. is because MY PASSION IS TO WORK WITH CHILDREN,
NOT BEING UNHAPPY WORKING IN A PLACE WHERE THERE IS NO HAPPINESS

=( or =)?

hey =/ havent logged in a long time.. 


anyways.. back here to blog abt the recent events that took place 
in my family..


just last week my cousin called up my mom regarding my 2nd uncle..
at that time (last wed) we were informed that my 2nd uncle
is being suspected of having liver cancer! ><


so we rushed to the hospital to see him.. my mom broke down.. ='(
went there with my brother.. went i first went there.. i saw my uncle's condition
but at that time i just couldn't feel anything... up until last saturday..


went there again with my mom.. saw how run down my uncle became..
frankly speakin my heart broke and i wanted to cry.. but i couldn't now can i? 
cuz i knew it wouldn't be any help to my mother.. 


i helped to take care of him by doing little things such as helping to give
him water and food =) it was a pleasure to me.. i loved doin it.. hehe


we went there again on sunday.. mom and i bought some wet tissues and
lotion for my 2nd uncle.. met with my 4th uncle over there to visit him.. =)
again i helped my mom by taking care of my 2nd uncle.. hehe oni this time
i massaged his legs! and helped to clean his face (dry pecks on his eyes)


hehe it was great joy for me to do so! =D 
then just ytd my 2nd uncle was discharged from the hospital.. so we went to
his house to visit.. (walau.. ) hehe seeing him so happy! he was truly happy 
to be back home =) his eyes were so wide open unlike the time he was at
the hospital where he oni always wanted to sleep.. ><


my 4th uncle bought some food for him to eat.. hehe =)
mom fed him and he enjoyed it.. well.. he sure does love meat! keke
oh i 4got to mention that the LEE family (mom) loves eating meat alright!
kakaka! so do i.. i love chicken.. but they prefer pork though.. @@


long day though.. each visit took us minimum of 3 hours.. and we would
always come back home earliest 11.45pm.. i guess it is tiring but it's also
worth it since we get to see him =D


oh yes.. just to elaborate further.. my 2nd uncle (so to say) has always been
unfortunate.. as he has met with car accident (bone fracture and replaced my metal)
so his legs are quite weak.. and just before he was admitted into the hospital..
he fell down 4 times.. OMG FOUR TIMES!! i just couldn't bear the thought of the
pain he went through and yet without one word of complain! >


just last week we were told that he not only has liver cancer.. but had gallstones
with size of 11cm! so big rite?! he also has a right kidney failure.. which makes
him have difficulty for excretion.. >< but ytd we got bad news that it wasn't a gallstone
but in fact is a TUMOR! ='( to add salt to the wound.. it grew to 14cm! 


omg what a shock it was to us all! haix!! i just pray for him to lead a better life
as the doctor had predicted he has numbered days... >< so sad!!


there is a good news though.. hehe =)


when i saw my 2nd uncle in that state.. i prayed to our heavenly Father that He may send
a good Samaritan to my uncle to spread the gospel to him and grant him salvation..
i want my family members to be with our Father in heaven where there is no pain or
sorrow! =)


good news is that God did answer my prayers!! i'm so happy.. because uncle YL 
and Crystal were so nice to come and visit my 2nd uncle and chit-chatted with him..
that time my 2nd uncle told them that he wanted to give up [ ='( ] but thankfully
after spending some time with him.. somehow my 2nd uncle decided to accept the Lord! =D


hehe not only that.. an uncle sharing the same hospital ward as my 2nd uncle also
came to Christ! wow.. how great is the Lord?! keke so i pray that God's healing hand will
protect my uncle in his coming days.. =DD


that's all.. hehe